Thursday, August 31, 2006

Lost

I have not been posting origional content lately, I don't know why. I don't feel like writting or saying much. It seems I'm lost, but I don't know how. I'm hurting deep inside and I don't know why. I'm thinking but I don't know what. The only explanation I can come up with is that I'm lost. My life does not seem to have a direction. A few years back there were so many things I wanted to do. I'm slowly loosing the drive to do any of them. Ambitions, dreams, desires seem to have taken a back seat in this broken down vehicle we call life. My life has become monotonous, where I used to be unpredictable, I can now be found doing the same old boring things everyday. I have changed and I do not really know why. I don't like this change and I am trying to fight but I seem to have lost that drive to fight. I hope that instead of just talking about things I want to do, I can muster up the courage and the drive to go ahead and do it. I hope that I can break the unseen shackles that are holding me back.

9 comments:

Bee Amma said...

I completely know what you are talking about and have been feeling the same recently. Im told its all part of growing up, i dunno. Cheer up tho, take one step at a time, and do those things you've been meaning to do!

Syed Sibgatullah said...

yep!!! you're absorbing the world as time passes and you see things happening aroud you. you want to do away with the senseless hulchul and settle and smoothen out your days by eliminating unnecessary chores.

but maybe it's only temporary as when you see life passing by you, you'll want to catch up. so let time handle it. good luck!!

inquilaab said...

It's the concrete of this country I tell you.

Destitute Rebel said...

@ Bee Amma, I guess its part of growing up, there are phases where you dont know whats going on, just some down days i guess im having those.

@ Syed, Very true I'm sure its only temporary, because i want to catch up with the life passing me by.

@inquilaab, Lol you seem to be phycic, the concrete of this country plays a major role in my moods.

Tainted Female said...

Since I'm starting to feel along these same lines, know that if you do muster up the energy to get going on doing the things you want to... I'd be happy to keep you company. But give me some forewarning, cause otherwise I'll not have the time to muster up my own courage.

Khayra B said...

Eat some chocolate.

It makes the world go round <3

Just don't eat too much or else you'll go from || to ( ) if you catch my drift~

Chris said...

Here via blog explosion but this entry caught my eye. Try this exercise from "Six Pillars of Self Esteem". In a notebook, write 6-10 endings to the following sentences as fast as you can, without censoring yourself.

-If I bring just 5% more awareness to my concern to how I sometimes stand in my own way....

-If I bring just 5% more awareness to my deepest values and goals....

-If I bring just 5% more awareness to my impulse to avoid unpleasent facts....

-If I bring just 5% more awareness to the outcomes of my actions....

good luck, my friend.

Chris
My Blog

Destitute Rebel said...

@Tainted, lately a lot of the people have been feeling like this, I wonder if it could be the weather. If i ever do muster up the energy I will holler.

@khayra. Thanks chocolate always makes my day. too much has already made me ( ), lol.

@Chris, Thanks for the tip. I'll try it sometime.

BuJ said...

welcome to the club.. i feel the same even though i am not in the uae.. but it gets much worse when i am back.. especially after the effects of happiness wear off..

i find that my blog is a false facade hiding the void of my life beneath it.

my hope is that i can realise it and resolve it before the facade falls